the premiere.


summer weather has arrived in sweden!! and you know what that means, right?! yep. flip flops! my favorite shoes to wear (or not wear, since that’s part of the point for me. hehe.)

anyway… after our day of business & work was over, lina and i put on summer clothes, grabbed a blanket & books, and headed to a sunny, warm park. and i wore my flip flops to get there. yes!

oh how i looove summer weather!

peace out.

just a little walk.

it’s a beautifully sunny evening in norrköping. the sky is bright blue. the sun is golden. the trees are now dark green. the air is warm, yet crisp (when the wind blows, or when you happen to find yourself walking through some shade). it is amazing here in sweden when the weather is good. but, i am inside right now. just had some dinner, and ready to settle in with a glass of wine and a little tv watching soon. sounds rough, huh?

today i’ve re-learned a lesson that i seem to have to re-learn over and over again in my life. i think i’m usually aware of it, but somehow the universe always seems to want to remind me again.

here’s the thing. i wrote last weekend that we were going to have a BBQ saturday, and that we did. but, we did it on a cold, windy, and blah weather saturday. not the sunny, warm-ish day we were “promised” by the weather people. hmpf. we (well, not exactly me. hehe) grilled our food outside, but ate inside. it was still cozy & nice, but different from what i had expected. however, the halloumi cheese, tomatoes, mushrooms, onions, & corn from the grill tasted like summer. the glass of wine was refreshing. and the company was fun & funny. so, all in all, it was a great afternoon/evening.

after waiting all day on saturday for the sun to come out (as predicted) and it not happening, i was prepared for a chilly, rainy day of movies and laziness at home on sunday. but, that didn’t happen either. by late morning sunday, when i finally rolled myself out of bed, the sun was shining and there was blue sky with big, puffy clouds. ok. wrong prognosis again. we went downtown and then to lina’s grandparents’ for a mother’s day fika (sweden’s mother’s day was yesterday). again, it was an enjoyable, unexpected afternoon.

this weekend reminded me how important it is to seize the moment! we can’t predict what will happen tomorrow. we have no idea what the weather will be like, or if another opportunity to do something we love/dream of will present it’s self to us again in the future. so, every minute… LIVE life to the fullest! if the sun is shining, take that walk you want to. if you have the time, meet up with a friend. just do it. whatever it is, do it! don’t think that you have tomorrow, live for today. live for this moment. grab onto life. do what you really want. live your passion. take a leap of faith.  dream. stop & smell the roses. and trust your soul.

so, today. i did just that. after school, it was so beautiful, that i took a long, out-of-the-way walk home.  come along now, take a look around, & walk with me….

seize the day. peace.

det blir bättre.

sometimes there are good programs on tv. important ones. ones that can make a difference.

tonight lina and i watched the last episode of  “det blir bättre” (it gets better). for the past 6 weeks this show has featured six people (one per episode) who have shared their stories, their experiences, and their struggles in life so that others might find a little hope. these 6 people have conquered their fears, battled the demons in their pasts, and come to live full, amazing lives… and their purpose on this show was to share with all children, teens, and adults that no matter how bad it gets, we are all strong enough to make it through. we can face our fears, talk about our struggles, and find our ways out of the darkness and into the light. it gets better. det blir bättre.

this past fall, in the USA, there were many suicides due to bullying. it seemed like it was story after story, teen after teen, all giving up hope because they were afraid, isolated, and made to feel that they were worthless and never going to get out of the situations in which they found themselves. so, they gave up. and they took their own lives. every day, all around the world teenagers and children (and adults) face the same dilemma: how to find the strength to hold on one more day when it just doesn’t seem like things will ever change. they will always be teased. they will always be an outsider. they will never find a job. they will never be accepted. they will never feel safe…. so many of us feel these suffocating feelings. perhaps even you feel hopeless some days. i know i do. i have.

but, we don’t have to.

Joel Burns is a city council member from texas who took time during one council/town meeting this fall (after hearing of all the tragedies) to share his story of dealing with being a gay teenager and his own personal thoughts of considering suicide at that time in his life. his speech was put on you tube this fall, and it has gone viral. he has become the unofficial spokesperson for the “it gets better” campaign that went around the world. (you can watch his speech here). well, because of joel burns, some people of sweden were inspired make a tv show called “det blir bättre” to share the message of hope with sweden. awesome, i think.

as i watched and listened tonight, i thought about how important it is for us to be real & honest with each other. if we are not being bullied now, perhaps we have been bullied. or abused. or mistreated. or neglected. or just felt hopeless for whatever reason. i am certain that all of us have felt alone, disappointed, and lost at times in our lives. why don’t we learn something from these 6 swedish people in sweden on tv, and from joel burns, and from countless others (famous or not) who have shared their stories of hope … and begin to share our stories too? let’s talk. let’s be honest. let’s share each others’ pain. because we’re all connected. and we can help each other.

why don’t we just talk and listen?