february 29. bonus day.

wondering what to do with this extra day? a day which just happens to be in the middle of lent = a journey which can, and does, lead to transformation… if we let it.

how about we do this…

happy wednesday, my dear readers. don’t give up. just keep on. this morning is a new beginning – a chance to love more, to live more, to be more.

sending you thoughts of peace & love.

because i have nothing else to do. right.

ok. a little break. i was thinking i’d be productive today, but it ain’t happenin’. i don’t know why. ugh. i always get so stressed out when i don’t accomplish what i planned on accomplishing. perhaps i am trying to repeat last tuesday – which was an amazing, inspiring, productive day which left me filling whole & content. today. not. so. much.

well since i am being unproductive with my work, i figure i’ll play a little. so, here’s a little “tagging game” courtesy of moments of mezzo, who tagged me.

the rules:

  1. Post the rules (that’d be these 5 things here.)
  2. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post (below)
  3. Create at least 5 new questions (gaaahh. stress!)
  4. Tag some peeps and link them to your post
  5. Let em know they’ve been tagged!

the questions:

If you could take a walk in a celebrity’s shoes for a day, who would you choose and why?

i have just surprised myself with this answer…

angelina jolie. not that i love her or anything, but her life fascinates & intrigues me. she travels like a crazy person, meets amazing people, gets to act for a living, seeks quality & justice, is a humanitarian, and has a huge family. it sounds so exotic & fulfilling at the same time. i think i would adjust quite well to sharing a life with my love that looked like angelina & brad’s.

Chocolate or vanilla?

vanilla. i can add chocolate & so much of whatever else i wish! i just realized that i was thinking about ice cream only, but the question only mentions chocolate or vanilla. hmm… so i go with chocolate. except vanilla ice cream. got it?

What is your favorite song and why?

imagine by john lennon. it’s soft, chill, and so so so meaningful. it’s my dream… & i hope that it will be played at my funeral. morbid? nope. it’s my wish for the world and my plea for all who will be left behind after i am gone. imagine. and work for peace.

Dogs or cats? (Don’t make me unfollow you.)

at the risk of losing you as a reader, mezz… cats. as if you regular readers didn’t know. hehe.

Which part of Fear Factor would you be the worst at: the physical activity, the gross stuff, or the dare devil stunts? The best at?

i would suck at everything. but i would be absolutely the worst at the physical activity. i am so not a physical kinda person – unless it involves dancing. and as for the rest of it, i’m a chicken. ok. i’m not that bad. i can handle some gross stuff and i can be adventurous, but not the extreme things they do on fear factor. nope. not for me.

What is one strange habit you have? Where did it come from?

i can’t think of anything…. i know there must be tons of weird habits that i have, but my brain is stuck. maybe everything i do is weird. ask lina. she’ll for sure know something. hehe.

If you were in a fire, apart from people and animals, what 5 things would you grab first if you had the time (in order)?

my journal, my phone, a photo album, my camera, old writings. i really thought about this, and i realized that if i had my love & my cat, i would be fine losing everything else. truly. everything else can be replaced. i’ve worked really hard to not become dependent on stuff – it doesn’t really mean that much in the end.

my questions:

1. what is your favorite holiday & why?

2. what character in the movies or in a book do you most identify with & why?

3. share one of your most embarrassing moments. give us all the nitty gritty. :)

4. who has been the most influential person in your life & why?

5. if you could quit punching the clock & get paid for doing what you really love, your hobby, what would that be? details!

tag! you’re it!

julia, karen, lanie, and trista.

ok. back to work. thanks for the fun, the mezz. peace out, peeps!

p.s. I also tag lindsey!!

everything’s pink & blue.

i set my alarm for 6:30 when i woke up at 4:30. i was feeling ambitious. then, i rolled back over to sleep the last 2 hours before my monday would begin. i slept hard. before i knew it, the alarm went off & i was scrambling & fumbling around trying to slide my finger across my phone to silence the music which sounded like it would wake the whole neighborhood. seriously, 6:30 already? with my alarmed turned off (not on snooze, mind you), i lay my head back down on my fluffy pillow, knowing that i was taking a risk. i think i fell asleep, but the falling asleep actually served to wake me up again – my eyes shot open, i did that short breath thing that you do when you’re nodding off, but find yourself waking up. oh god. how long had i slept? with fear, i grabbed my phone & checked the time. 6:42. only 12 minutes had passed. i lucked out. i contemplated my choices. get up, make coffee, light candles, read/write (plus find out all the oscar updates!) or sleep again until lina’s alarm does off in 45 minutes.

i chose to get up. somewhere i found the strength & motivation to put my feet on the floor & make my way into the kitchen. as i was preparing all of the coffee paraphernalia, i realized that i had not turned on the light over the stove so i can see to pour in the water or scoop in the coffee grounds.

then i realized what was happening. light is coming back to sweden! it’s 6:45 & everything is blue & pink outside. inside, the kitchen is lit with natural, morning light. the months of darkness are over. i declare it to be official. and while i truly love the dark, cozy winter months, i find myself feeling very happy to see the sun making such an early appearance this morning. come to think of it, it feels as if everyone is coming out of hibernation these past few days. it’s so true what they say – the light of the sun (or lack thereof) truly affects one’s mood & general overall feeling. perhaps that’s why all those swedes smiled back at me the other day when i took a walk out in the sunshine. we all were part of the same club, with the same secret knowledge and the same feelings… we all know it. we all feel it. the sun is beginning it’s return, spring will come again. the sun had, in fact, not abandoned us. and these little moments of hope found in the secrets of nature remind us to keep on going & fill us with friendliness and cheer.

i’m glad i decided to get up. i needed to see the beauty of the morning, to have the sunshine greet me and tell me that the time has come again – the dark days & nights have ended. for now. just as i had hoped & believed that the light would return, it became true. and when the light fades to darkness again (and it will), i will remember this morning. the darkness may last awhile, it may seem to go on forever, but it never wins. the light will return.

but, you know, it was never really gone.

wishing you a beautiful monday filled with light & peace.