a sign.
there was a rainbow in the sky when i left to go home tonight. bright colors set against the dark sky. i tried to take a picture of it, but my phone showed 1% battery left the in the upper right corner. i snapped the photo, saw it on my screen, and then… my phone died. when i got home & plugged in my phone, i held my breath as i clicked to see my photos. was the picture saved? i’m sure you can guess that, sadly, it was not saved; otherwise you would have seen it as my top photo. still i saw the rainbow. i experienced it. and while i cannot share it with you, take my word for it. it was beautiful & vibrant. and i am certain that it was a sign. a sign of the promise of hope. something that means so much to me in life right now.
the sign that i did capture is in the above picture. it reads, “more time”. i have no idea what it is advertising, but when i saw it dancing in the wind and noticed all of the people rushing by, the sign spoke to me. i immediately knew that the sign was a symbol of what we all think we want & need… more time.
but, do we really want/need more time? or is that we just need to learn how to use the time that we have more wisely? i know i do. i want to. i want to stop being lazy & spending time on the wrong things. what i mean is, i want to seize the day. when i feel the desire to pack up my computer & go to my favorite, cozy attic, cafe space & work, then i want to do it. when i want to get in touch with someone & plan a time to see them, then i want to do it. if i feel the desire to pick up my camera & head out to take pictures, then i want to do it. i wanna suck the marrow out of every second of every day. i wanna cross things off of my bucket list; not just settle for existing, but really, truly live. no more waiting for the perfect moment or the perfect plan.
you know, i’m not sure if i really need more time, as the sign suggests. perhaps i just need more motivation.
so, my dear friends, how do you stay motivated? what things do you long to do with your time?
My motivation usually has to come from outside me, which is why a writer needs a blog! But right now…I’d love to travel to all the places where there’s sun and live a life of pleasure. For which one needs more time to make more money…or something like that
I am right there with you! That’s all I think about every day right now… running away to a warm, sunny place to sit & write. Never to return. Just to keep traveling. Stupid money.
Oh big motivation crisis on this side of the pond
though I cut down on watching tv which helps. So I figured it’s nearly 6 months after new years and I did quite well at the start of the year until spring tiredness hit me. So I’m gonna go for summer resolutions now 
xx
I should totally do some summer resolutions. Didn’t do any new years ones since i suck at keeping them. But I need some motivation somehow. And I need to turn off the tv.
xo
Oh I really know what you mean… for me it’s working long hours right now and then feeling too lazy to do much else when I’m not working. I should just drop everything at 6pm and go home, and then maybe I’d have more time and motivation to do other stuff
I am so with you. Gaahh. Lack motivation, but desire to do things. It’s a crazy balance, this life.