settling in.

i feel stressed today. no real reason why, i guess. true, i have quite a bit to do, but it’s not bad stuff. it’s not that tough either, just things that need to be done. and i don’t really feel much motivation. of course, i have no idea why. i guess things just are what they are sometimes.

it’s monday. the sun is shining. and i feel expected to be feeling happy, carefree, and excited. it’s summer, right? i should be feeling all those things. however, today, right now, i’m not feeling any of those things. instead there is a melancholic, lazy summer feeling swirling around me. i’m not really sad, or hurting. i just am. i feel restless and like i don’t want to do anything at the same time.

ugh, monday, why do you do this to me?

i ran across the above picture this morning and was completely drawn into it… the beach, the simplicity, the words. all of it. it gave me a sense of peace for a moment. think of it… the settling of the soul. exactly where it is supposed to be. how wonderful is that?! to feel that your soul is settled is to feel whole, completely grounded, connected, and at peace. it’s not to be without troubles or mondays that feel blah. but, it is to tap into your soul, to know with some deep sense of knowing from your heart (not your logical mind) that you are being true to yourself.

the thought of settling has always felt boring to me. something to avoid. you know, like settling down… never to move again. no adventure. just a day to day routine that never changes. people always say, “never settle for second best” and i think i translated that to “never settle” in my life. i think i’ve avoided that for a long time. settling for me in the past has always meant giving up something. choosing something because it’s more practical instead of being true to myself. i have settled in my life before… in a suffocating my soul kind of way. oh, how i settled. and once i decided to stop, i promised myself to never settle again. never again would i suffocate my dreams or let my passion die to a tiny ember.

i have never thought of the “setting of my soul”; and that it is something positive that comes from within.

settling is not a physical place that gives a sense of security, or happiness, or even boredom and monotony. it is an inner peace. settling into my soul. doesn’t that just sound so calming and true? it is knowing and being who you are, wherever you are, because it actually doesn’t matter where you are. get my drift?

writing that just reminded me of a line from one of my fave movies/the beatles: across the universe

“i am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together.”

it’s amazing. i love to get comments and looks on my blog. i love to check my stats and see what/who’s been active and how i may be making connections to other people. but i am reminded right now that i write on this blog first & foremost for me. it is a release, a place to think, to ponder, to be creative. and in that process, i usually make my way through whatever i am feeling. or gain a different perspective, or come to understand myself better.

and while i started this post feeling the way i did (monday blahs), i feel much more inspired now. writing my thoughts down allowed me to purge them, to think through them, and i ended up finding inspiration. my thoughts and feelings just wound themselves, like a path in the woods, to a place where i felt something from within me. connected with myself. all because of the process, the journey.

so, i’m feeling ready. ready to tackle this monday. and i’m feeling much more calm now. writing & just being with my thoughts for a few minutes has settled me into my soul. oh, and of course, i’m gonna be listening to the “across the universe” soundtrack all day now. perhaps i will even write some on my book/story later on tonight…

in any case, i’ll leave you all now and wish you a monday filled with deep breaths, good music, and a chance to settle into your soul.

peace.

2 comments

  1. Kate

    Mondays have a way of doing that to you, don’t they? Making you feel energetic and “blah” at the same time? Glad that you perked up at the end—writing and running do the same thing for me, too. Hope you have a happy day!

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