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meditation mondays: just start

hello, out there! i’m writing to you from a cozy spot on the sofa in my brother’s back apartment this morning. what that means is that we’re all moved out from our sweet little home + into our temporary asheville digs in the middle of downtown. we’ll be here until sunday – when we pile up in the car + drive to new york to fly out to sweden on monday. so, basically. one. week. left.

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today, i feel much better than yesterday. yesterday, we hit our moving and emotional limits i think. lina had it a bit worse, i believe. it wasn’t that there was so much to do, it was that it was the ending of our home there. i suppose though, it all started with waking up + knowing that we had just spent our last night in our home. and then, it just got more + more challenging – emotionally.

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but, we powered on through. and even set aside time for a yummy brunch at a favorite place with some good friends.

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then, it was back to work. my brother took our bed to my parents’ place. we thought we’d keep the bed in storage… for that mountain cabin that we are going to get just as soon as we can afford it. yep. we dream big. we took a few loads of things to a donation station to give away. cleaned the apartment at my brothers. and then, we took the rest of everything that was left, out piece by piece, and we moved the cat over to this apartment with us.

we settled in last evening, all 3 of us, and just sat. stunned. exhausted. but, somewhat happy. zola explored her new little home, while lina and i sipped on beer, ate chips, and watched some things on our computers. then, we crawled into the bed. all of us. and passed out.

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this morning, i woke, feeling freaked out and excited all at the same time. there are still a lot of errands to run, accounts to close, a car to sell, apartment keys to turn in. gaaaah. but, it’ll all work out and be ok. i stumbled across this quote this morning, and thought i’d use it as my meditation for this monday. and, i thought i’d also share it with you. so, whatever you are doing today. whatever you face. whatever you are beginning or ending or dreaming about, this is for you. all of you, out there. my dear readers.

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start now. start where you are. start with fear. start with pain. start with doubt. start with hands shaking. start with voice trembling but start. start and don’t stop. start where you are, with what you have. just… start.

onwards + upwards! xoxo

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let’s get this party started

well, time is moving quickly + there’s much to be done! my love + i returned home from washington, dc last night after a fantastic little holiday. the first thing we did was unpack our stuff, throw it all in the dirty clothes hamper, and then lit some candles + crawled into bed. we were super tired from a 10 hour trip by way of charlotte to drop off lina’s parents. but a little cozy time together was just what we need to wind down. we knew that this would be pretty much our last “normal” night at home, so we soaked it up.

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this morning, we hit things full speed ahead. i got a tip about a job to apply for in sweden, so i got all wrapped up in preparing an application and my cv/portfolio for that, and then it was time to sort + organize + pack. it was a madhouse here. but, we got a ton done, and i’d say that we are in a pretty good place – packing-wise. my parents helped out greatly by getting us some lunch + my mom packed away some kitchen things i am saving at their place.

the packing went well, but my emotions have not gone so well. i had a meltdown at one point. tears have been common, as have been moments of panic inside of me – like i’m about to climbs the walls. i’m more than certain, however, even with my emotions all crazy, that this is the right move for us to make. even though it hurts so much.

i can feel big things bubbling beneath the surface, great moments + opportunities on the horizon, and a chance to grow + learn + become in ways that i cannot even begin to imagine.

when i feel totally overwhelmed, though, and need to remind myself of this security + excitement that i feel, it always helps for me to turn my eyes to the sky. and tonight’s sunset was exactly the reminder that i  needed after a wacky, busy day like today.

i’ll have to look at the sky a a lot over the nest 2 weeks, i believe.

tomorrow is when the shit really hits the fan, though. in the morning, bright and early, the movers come to inventory and package and take away all of the stuff we are shipping to sweden. i have to take zola the cat to the vet, and people come to pick up the furniture that they are buying. in the evening, though, we’re taking a little break to see our dear friends in concert here in asheville. local music. friends. beer. a perfect way to end another upcoming intense day. the rest of the weekend will be more packing of furniture that people come to get, moving over to my brother’s apartment, and turning in our keys here. but…. before we turn in our keys, we’re having one last big party in our practically empty apartment on saturday night. and i cannot wait.

so, with a little mixing of fun + business + sky-gazing, i am certain that i will make it through this weekend. but, it’s gonna be a super crazy one. guess i’ll be tapping into my word of the year a bunch over the next 3 days: feeling empowered!

here’s to wishing you a great weekend, friends!

onwards + upwards! xo

making me all weepy.

think of this post as a little celebration on a completely random day.

one year ago today, i wrote an important post (click here to read it). it may not have been important to anyone but me. but, nevermind that. it was one of those serendipitous days that occurs every so often when you just know that everything is right. when your soul is not whispering to you, but shouting with joy and you feel as if you might burst. a day when everything makes sense and life seems exactly as it should.

it was a very powerful day for me. a day where i realized that i was ready. ready to really chase my dreams. ready to accept and understand and move forward. ready to admit that i would never go back – i could never go back – to simply living my old, “regular” life, but i knew that it was time to embrace the calling and the feeling that i was meant to write. no matter what.

and while it made sense to me, how any of that would be possible, i had no idea. i knew that i was going to do it. i had no idea how, but i believed. lina and i were already committed to moving to asheville so that lina could follow her dreams, but this time last year, i embraced that this move meant that i would also be following my dream as well.

it was as if i gave myself permission to just jump. to take a leap of faith and risk it. and that’s what last year’s post was all about.

this week, Facebook turned 10 and they created little videos for users based on their photos and updates – things they had posted on Facebook since they first began using it. i joined Facebook in 2007, just a few weeks after meeting lina. and i actually joined so that lina and i could keep in touch. so, our entire relationship was based on a friendship started in sweden and developed through Facebook messages and webcam chats.

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when i clicked on my little one-minute video to see what Facebook had created for me, i was brought to tears by the photos and words that appeared before my eyes. it was a collection of beautiful moments from the very beginning of our relationship to now, in addition to some great highlights of my family and other amazing memories. i was so touched by my little video, and it brought to mind this incredible journey that i have been on throughout the past year. well, actually the past seven years…

so, i just had to share it with you. i wanted to share it as a way of honoring my life and reminding me of how overwhelmingly grateful i am. i wanted to share it with you to “prove” to you that you can make your dreams come true, that it is possible to live the life that you dream of and to find your passion. and i wanted to encourage you to never give up.

i hope that you, too, can look back over your life, whether it be 10 years or 10 days, and find things to celebrate as well. but, more than anything, i wish for you to feel hope and excitement and peace as you look forward.

click below to watch the video:

 peace & love. xx