what’s waiting for you?

it’s been a good day. it started off a little if-y, though. spent the morning in a long meeting surrounded by a lot of negative energy actually. why must people always see the problems and stuck there? why must people discuss something over & over, going in circle after circle – arguing and not moving forward? ugh.

but that was just the first hour. then we had fika, that life-saving break that breathes new inspiration into all people. and today it did just that. well, at least for me.

over a steaming cup of hot chocolate, i met an intern from germany & we hit it off. as we were chatting with each other, i started having one of those crazy conversations in my head that some of you know that i have when i am doing some public speaking or just talking… i analyze, plan, and think things in my head as i am speaking about something else. well, i was doing just that. as i was chit-chatting with the german chick, i was thinking about how unbelievably incredible it was that we were chatting in swedish. 2 newly-swedish-speaking ex-pats, from different countries, with different languages (of course she speaks english too), speaking a third language to communicate. so. freaking. cool.

and then i had a moment. one of those moments where i am blown away that i live in sweden. i left my home country, everything i knew, moved to live with my love, have learned a new language, and have been working for almost a year – making connections & building up my own life here. of course, not without the help & support of so many people, mainly my love. anyway, it was an awesome moment. one that i never dreamed, planned, or thought i would find myself in the middle of.

life is crazy. amazing. difficult. and breath-taking. especially when we go deeper, get out of our comfort zones, and risk everything. we never know what’s waiting for us! but i guarantee every single one of you that, if we listen to our souls, it will be more amazing than we ever could have imagined.

courage & peace i send to you.

crazy weekend nights.


ok. maybe my weekend nights are not crazy in your eyes, but they are my nights just the same. and i like them. i’m not ashamed. judge me if you want… well, perhaps we just have different definitions of crazy. hehe. i’m kidding. they were definitely not wild & crazy nights, but they have been crazy in their own special way in my little part of the world.

friday’s craziness involved working with about 6 teenagers… we played some games together, laughed uncontrollably, and talked some about lent & this journey we’re on for the next 40ish days. it was a really great night full of tons of joking & fun! no, there was mass of teenagers breaking down the doors, (due to the fact that it was winter break for them), but sometimes it’s good to have a smaller group. when it’s a smaller group, i can really spend some quality time with them – and that i did. on my way home, i stopped on the street to say hey to my love while she was at work with her teenagers (my internship teens). i walked with some of them for a little bit & then headed to our neighborhood pizzeria to grab a late night snack to munch on when i got home (it was about 10:30pm when i got home). for some reason i was wide awake, so i stayed up until my love came home (2:00am). it was really cozy… hanging out under my covers with my computer & my cat. oh, and my snack was awesomely yummy.

the sunset as i walked to work friday night. gorgeous.

 self-explanatory. hehe.

saturday’s craziness was all about a little pub visit (after working some in the afternoon) to our favorite spot just down the street from us. i love spending some quality time with my love… just chatting, dreaming, and getting in touch with each other. it’s so important to make time to just be together & catch up. we ended the night at home by watching the swedish song contest that everyone watches on saturday nights. we gotta choose the artist who’s gonna represent sweden in the eurovision song contest (for all my american friends, think… american idol, but with a representative from every state). this is a big deal here.

the pub.

sunday night’s craziness has been dominated by some interior decorating! lina had a little inspiration this afternoon as we wandered through downtown, so we made a few purchases & voila! we hung new art over our bed! check out lina’s blog (here) to see a cool post on the decorating process.

i love it! (kudos to my love for coming up with the great idea!)

that’s about it for the weekend’s “craziness”. gonna rest for the remaining moments of my weekend before a busy week begins again. buuuutttt… something amazingly fantastic happens at the end of this week… one of my dearest friends/former youth/”little sister” from the states is coming to visit us for a week!!! it’s a big moment for our little family, she’s our first visitor from the other side of the pond!

just to give ya a little background, j & i traveled together to sweden in 2007, which just happens to be when i met lina (i was a the leader for the youth “mission” trip she was on). more on our visitor (check out her blog here) & perhaps more on how lina & i met, later on… ♥

so, if i thought this weekend was crazy… well, next weekend will be super crazy. for real. can’t wait!

how was your weekend? i’m all ears… peace out, my peeps.

life in the fast lane.

oh my gosh. where do i begin? life is crazy right now. really good, but crazy. working 1 job 50% and having an internship 50% is about to rip me in two. don’t get me wrong, i absolutely loooove both my job & my internship, and i do not want to give either of them up, but my little brain finds it difficult to focus on both of them at the same time. the thing is, i feel like i’m bouncing back & forth all the time. some days i am even working at both places, which does not make it any easier. i am discovering that i am not so good at juggling, and i long to have only one job to focus on so i can give 100% of my best to that one thing.

on the other hand, nothing is ever boring for sure. and, as i said, i love working with the youth in both places…

which leads me to the possibilities that are lingering out there in front of me. at my work at the church, i found out that i may, i just may, be able to work there through the end of the year. right now i have the job until the end of june, but there is a remote possibility that i will be asked to work all the way through 2012. fingers crossed ‘cuz it rally feels like i’m beginning to get into a groove there! and it feels so unbelievably amazing to be working as a minister/pastor again. and then on the internship front… my internship at the youth organization is over in the end of april. but, i’m not planning on leaving. somehow i’ll find a way to stay connected. right now, the idea is that we (they) write  proposal (like a grant) to hire me for a certain amount of time as a project leader. and the project, you wonder? well, it is to work with 4-5 unemployed youth/young adults to create (illustrate & write) a book about youth in sweden – what they do, what they want, how life is. the plan is for me to gather these youth together, do some introductory lessons on social skills, help them plan trips & the book, and then travel to different cities, take pictures, and interview youth who live there. photography, teaching, traveling, writing, and youth. could anything be more perfect?!

so, there are amazing things on the horizon for me which i am really excited about. i have no idea what will come of anything, but that’s ok. for now, i am just trying to live from crazy day to crazy day. and enjoy all the little moments in between…

 like waking up to see this beautiful snow outside my kitchen window.

 like spending some quiet moments alone in the mornings.

like walking to work in the cold, crisp air. loving the snow crunching beneath my feet.

like writing some theological articles for my work. and struggling to write it all in swedish. hehe.

like walking in the dark back & forth, all over the place. yes. i walk. a. lot.

 like enjoying meetings, talking with people, chatting with teenagers – who all seem to need a little extra support these days, and always learning about different cultures (not just the swedish culture either).

like drinking wine & settling into the weekend.

that’s right. it’s thursday night & i’m looking at 2 full days ahead of me without work! WOO HOO!! my weekend starts tonight and i am turning my brain off, shutting down my responsibilities, and planning on enjoying time with my wife. though, i’m not gonna be sitting still. tomorrow we’re headed out of town to visit some friends & attend a meeting (but a good & interesting one!) on saturday. feels like it’s gonna be a fun friday evening, so i’m really looking forward to it. plus, nothing beats a cozy, little out-of-town bus  trip. geez i love to travel. any & everywhere! in any case, even in the midst of all the craziness & never-ending list of things to do, i am determined to find & carve out time to feed my soul. to just be. and to enjoy life with my love. and right now, that is what i intend to do for the next 48 hours.

wishing you a great start to your weekend!

peace & love.