7 more things to celebrate in april.

joy: lots of joy when n and i went out to eat and received lots of yummy, unique, delicious food... for free!

it’s been a challenging week for celebrations. but, true to what i believe, i must practice what i preach. so, even though i’ve been scared, sad, lonely, worried, and exhausted, i still have found something everyday to celebrate. what a great opportunity april’s photo challenge has been for me. it’s as if my subconscious knew something back in march when i planned april to be a month all about finding something to celebrate every day. it’s not always easy, and some days it seems like it’s almost impossible, but it’s there. there is always something, even if it’s the tiniest thing, to celebrate. there is always one reason to go to bed thankful and one reason to wake up hopeful.

here’s what i celebrated this past week:

8: cry

cry: crying, mourning, and remembering is a part of life. today was holocaust remembrance day.
cry: crying, mourning, and remembering is a part of life. today was holocaust remembrance day.

9. risk

risk: if i hadn't taken one risk after another, this picture would have never happened. #wife #married #lgbt #expat #sweden #travel #dublin #ireland #guiness #friendship #love

10. pink

pink: a pink orchid on my windowsill... in honor of international anti-bullying day today.
pink: a pink orchid on my windowsill… in honor of international anti-bullying day today.

11. warm

warm: keeping warm while standing at the bus stop waiting for our friend n, to arrive from ireland!
warm: keeping warm while standing at the bus stop waiting for our friend n, to arrive from ireland!

12. unhindered

unhindered: this is the day my love went to the hospital. i need some strong, unhindered, tough inspiration . this was perfect. face those fears & challenges, and grab onto life! y e a h.
unhindered: this is the day my love went to the hospital. i needed some strong, unhindered, tough inspiration. this was perfect. face those fears & challenges, and grab onto life! y e a h.

13. joy

joy: lots of joy when n and i went out to eat and received lots of yummy, unique, delicious food... for free!
joy: lots of joy when n and i went out to eat and received lots of yummy, unique (smoked octopus & pork belly), delicious food… for free!

14. laughter

laughter: this movie did it for me. laughter is sometimes the best medicine.
laughter: this movie did it for me. laughter is sometimes the best medicine.

so, what are you celebrating? what has happened lately that has reminded you that life is a beautiful journey, even when it’s messy? talk to me!

party on! peace & love.

28 days of love: black & white style.

these thingys. so soft & adorable.

well, here we are again. another week has flown by and there are only a few days left in february. crazy!! and from where i am sitting now, it feels pretty good to be moving on into march. good in an exciting way! for now, though, i have a few more super fun things waiting for me as this month winds down. so, it’s time to live in the here & now. time to soak up the present moment as i embark on the last week of this photo challenge. and i can promise you that there will be some super cool pictures in my last week… stay tuned & check back. i’m leaving sweden for a few days. wink wink.

as you can see, there is a little black & white theme going on with my photos this week. i didn’t plan on it being that way, but after 3 days i realized that i had inadvertently used a black & white filter, so i decided to complete the week with the same theme. a little artsy, ya know.

15: nostalgic

feelin' all nostalgic in one on my fave hippie t-shirts.
feelin’ all nostalgic in one on my fave hippie t-shirts.

16: flower

do you see the cat among the flowers? hehe.
do you see the cat among the flowers? hehe.

17: dream

i'm just a little american girl livin' my dream with my love from our home in europe.
i’m just a little american girl livin’ my dream with my love from our home in europe. seriously. i live here. soooo cool.

18: breathe

breathe deep. fingers crossed. dreams in the making.

breathe deep. fingers crossed. dreams in the making.

19: soft

these thingys. so soft & adorable.
these thingys. so soft & adorable.

20: memory

making memories on a girl's night. chips. popcorn. drinks with fun straws. and movies.
making memories on a girl’s night. chips. popcorn. drinks with fun straws. and movies.

21. beloved

my beloved being her funny self this morning as we played games. last night our niece stayed over & we had a girls' night. super fun.
my beloved being her funny self this morning as we played games. a continuation of our girls’ night. fun!

as the month comes to an end, i am left wondering what i’m gonna do in march? photo challenge? or not? and if i do one, should i make it myself or follow another one’s? hmmm… what do you think?

have a great thursday! peace.

the full moon effect.

yep. it’s monday, huh? how’s yours going?

if you live on the east coast of the united states, i hope that you have all you need and are safe as hurricane sandy pushes herself upon you. geez. she is a huge & scary storm, threatening some pretty serious disasters over a large area.

not much is happening here in sweden. it’s just cold & gray. oh, and dark.

well, we did have one of lina’s friend’s come & visit us for lunch, and that was really great. it was a friend i had never met before, so it was cool to finally put a face to the name. she as really sweet, and hopefully we’ll be able to go visit her next year in the northern part of sweden… i am dying to go there!! my love went to a university up north, and i’d love to see where that part of her life took place.

i feel like i almost know the area because she lived there during the time that we were getting to know each other & falling in love. only we didn’t know we were falling in love. hehe. i spent hours & hours talking with her on Skype, every day, when she was living up there. so, i have this nostalgic connection to that place, even though i’ve never been there. know what i mean?

anyway, i have met most of my love’s college friends from that time. in fact, we all get together fairly often. but, this one friend i had not met. my love actually didn’t study with her, but met her because of some mutual activities. anyway, this chick has heard of me, too. so it was really great for us to meet each other face to face, after hearing about each other for the past 5 years.

this afternoon, our restlessness set in again, and lina & i found ourselves feeling bored and tired again. like last night. it’s gotta be the full moon and the changing to winter time that is messing with my head for the past 2 days. i feel so off balance. suddenly, in the midst of all of my confused boredom, lina said she was going to bake an apple pie. that how things roll in sweden. people just up & decide to bake something – from scratch – and then do it. so, i had fresh apple pie for my afternoon snack. mmmmm….

after that, i felt better. i felt calm, and even a bit inspired. so i snapped a few shots in our apartment of our little halloween decorations…

tonight, we had a little halloween movie night with our friend, g. just a little tease before i break out the big guns on wednesday. (my wife doesn’t know it, but we’re gonna have a cozy, freaky, scary halloween night together.) have i ever mentioned how much i loooove scary movies? well, I do.

so, aside from getting into the halloween spirit, obsessively watching the weather in the states, fighting my restless tendencies, and meeting new/old friends, that’s my monday in a nutshell. as for tuesday, I really hope to get some writing done… i gotta post the next part of my story. and then there’ s a photo tips post, and a november post, a post about a girl & her book, some music inspiration, something spooky for halloween, a countdown, a post about siblings, and so much more. i could, in theory, spend all day writing… which topic sounds the best to you?!

we’ll see what happens! gosh i hope all my weirdness & unsettled ness go away soon. i miss feeling like myself. perhaps I should try more yoga, or meditation. i am definitely missing some spiritual connection these days… halloween & all hallow’s eve/all saints day should do the trick. i promise myself to sit in silence for at least 15 minutes when i get up in the morning… i’ll let you know how that goes.

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for now, g’night! peace.