i know that i posted a picture the other day, and i have written some in the past week. but, i feel so far away from my dear blog. my life just got a whole lot busier and i haven’t figured out how to squeeze in time for everything. so, sadly, i have neglected my blog. but, that’s not gonna work. writing here has become a way for me to express myself, my creativity, and to process my thoughts. i feel balanced and grounded when i post something regularly. i used to write in a journal, and i tried to start that again some months ago; but my life has become more digital, so the paper & pen thing (which i truly love!) just doesn’t work for me anymore. this blank page on my computer screen, where i can type, edit, add images, and even include music sometimes seems to fit me better now. and i love sending my thoughts and pictures out there. somewhere. into cyberspace. wherever they go. somehow i feel more connected to others.
but, i must find time. i must create space. but, when? my schedule is so weird. nighttime seems like a great time to reflect, but i am so not a night person. however, i am a morning person (sort of), so that could work. but, ugh. i have to get up at 5:30 or 6 in order to have time to really write. too early for me. i could keep on writing when the spirit moves me, but the spirit moves me so often – and usually in the most inopportune times = i am at work, walking, or involved in something else. so, what do i do? i need this time. i crave it.
perhaps the only way i can truly balance myself is to discipline myself.
discipline. what a crappy sounding word. it sounds so confining and boring. it sounds painful. and i guess that it is… to begin with. but, in the past, i have created a space for disciplined time of quiet meditation – a pause in my daily life in order to read, write, reflect, and just be. with all that’s going on (and all my new responsibilities & adventures!) i believe it’s time to buckle down and prioritize what’s really important to me. and i truly believe that in order to have energy, be positive, make a difference, and have something to offer others, i must remember some of my basic beliefs:
being leads to doing. connecting with my soul/God allows be to be free to be used. by focusing first on being still, then i am able to remember that my life is not all about me and i am inspired. it’s important to me to have a daily retreat. a mini-vacation. some sabbath time. sometimes it’s good to just get away. in order to create a balanced life.
so, that’s my plan. truly make time for myself. and not just 5 minutes, but some actual time. luckily i have found something new this week that is going to help me with this plan of mine… podcasts! podcasts are either audio or video clips from itunes & there are tons of them, from all sorts of categories! for free!!! you just download it to your itunes and viola! you’ve got a newscast, a book, a tv show, or whatever. this past weekend, i found one called “pray as you go”. it’s a 10 minute daily audio meditation. and it has been a great beginning to my day for the past few days.
life moves quickly. time goes by so fast. for me, it’s so good to take a pause on a regular basis. hopefully i will be able to faithfully spend some time with myself. and hopefully, during that time i will read a little, listen a little, and write & reflect here. on my dear blog.
here’s to wishing you an inspiring day! peace.
Sounds like you’re struggling with it, but am very sure it will slot in by itself
hey! thanks for stopping by & for leaving a comment! and thanks for the vote of confidence. it’s only been a few days, but so far, so good.
A lovely post. Im sure you will find time, for yourself otherwise you might go crazy. I always write my post at night. It is annoying because i end up awake till 2 in the morning. Getting carried away.
Jessie.