last night was the last friday night i worked with my teenagers. of course, my job continues until the middle of july, and i will keep working with my teenagers at 2 different camps & a few other things between now and the time my job ends, but the friday night meetings are now over – and that was my main contact with them. it felt surreal. i was aware of it the whole evening, but it didn’t feel real at the same time. still, it was a pretty big deal. and i felt the closing of a door. it feels different from when i left the church in canton (north carolina) 5 years ago. i had worked with those teenagers/kids/adults for 8 years, so it was crazy when i left there. i have only worked at this job for the past 2 years. still, it’s plenty of time to have established relationships and to know that both the teens and i will be affected by the ending of this time together. yep. i’m gonna miss them… they are crazy, fun, pretty awesome kids.
however, it’s time to move on. and with the ending of this job, comes another one. of course, i still have no idea what that job will be (a little freaky, yes). but, it is the beginning of a new adventure. new opportunities. new challenges, and therefore, new ways to grow.
so, i have officially entered the phase of the beginnings of the endings… the time where i am in the middle of soaking up everything around me and feeling moments of deep sadness, fear, & guilt; and at the same time feeling excitement, joy, & total impatience in waiting for the move. it’s a crazy, amazing time.
it feels even closer that i am nearing the end of my time here in sweden (for now), since we seem to have gotten a bit of summer weather here. it’s been sunny and warm, and gray and warm as well. yes, summer is on it’s way. times are changing, new adventures are right around the corner, and i am doing all that i can to be thankful and enjoy every single moment.