it’s late and i’m winding down with my computer, a yummy smelling candle, and some clean sheets (there’s nothing better. ok. there is. but, clean sheets are wonderful to slide in to). before i close my eyes, though, i need to write this post. i told a friend from the blogging world that i would give an update, so here it is.
holly, who’s been in japan on this amazing, spiritual-sounding, solo vacation & tour, asked me the other day how my 30 minutes of free time was going. i am proud to say that i have made it 7 days! yep. seven days, 30 minutes a day, just to be. what a wonderful gift to myself, actually… making me feel more calm, relaxed, and at peace. being committed to this time has also made me feel more like me. more in touch with myself. more willing to begin to create space in my life so that all of my thoughts & focus throughout the day are not on myself, but on how i can be used. i’m feeling inspired, grounded, connected, and yearning to get to that time of day where i am alone with my thoughts. it’s so funny, i think, how turning inward actually leads you to turn more outward. being leads to doing. i suppose it’s the inspiration, the reminders of what’s most important in life because of the opportunity to ponder & wonder.
most days during the past week i have gotten up early in the morning, but a few times i have squeezed in 30 minutes during another part of the day. i’ve read some, written in my journal some, meditated some, and walked some. there has been no music, only the silence & me. and my thoughts, which i can rarely shut off. in any case, it feels good. and i am proud i’ve made it for a week. now, just a few more to go and i’ll have myself a new habit. yes!
soon, a friend of mine from ireland will be joining me by creating her own 30 minute zone once she gets home from visiting her family. and i’ll see if there might be another friend who joins in as well… all in all, so far, i am thoroughly enjoying this . i’ve spent disciplined time with myself before, but i’ve always made it fairly routine & rigid. light a candle. read. write. read. write. blow out the candle. get dressed & ready for my day. and that was really, really great during that period in my life. it was exactly what i needed then. but, now, i feel more free. more creative. more spontaneous. i don’t plan at all what i am going to do. i go with the flow, the feeling i have. i listen to the voice within; and i simply grab a book, or take a walk, or make a list, or just sit there. feels perfect.
so, please, keep wishing me luck or sending me good vibes. it’s truly as if i can feel them. your support & thoughts somehow make it to me. i can feel it & i am so thankful. and if you aren’t spending 30 minutes with yourself, try finding just 2 minutes to just be. just 2 minutes. and let me know how it goes. we’ll support each other.
wishing you some peace & silence.