day 5. wild.

so far, i haven’t been posting my daily photos for april’s belovelive photo a day journey. i plan on doing a weekly sum up about it. but, today i just couldn’t resist after i figured out how i was going to interpret today’s word:

wild.

i usually interpret the day’s word based on how i feel that day, or on something that happens. but, today i have been seeing, feeling, and experiencing “wild” in many different ways, so i couldn’t focus. it’s been crazy wild, in a tough way, today. like “i’m feeling all over the place and have no control” wild. today i also i yearn for the wildness of nature, for mountains and trails and road trips. and i feel wild & crazy inside, in a good kinda way. like “be exactly who you are and dance on the tables” wild. finally, i am feeling a sort of “i am so busy i can’t focus” wild. it’s wild how wild i am today.

then, by some force of divine inspiration, i remembered a song that i love. and it all made sense. i knew my focus and my interpretation for the day.

i’ve posted a video of the song in a previous post, and wrote then about how much i dig the singer/songwriter (lp) responsible for this inspirational, meaningful track. and when, i remembered her today, i knew that this was a great reminder of what the word “wild” really means to me.

it’s not a negative word, though sometimes it’s used that way. today it has been tempting for me to focus on wild in a negative way. like out of control. but, if i’m honest, for me, it’s really a word about carefree, reckless abandon. of wind whipping through your hair, howling at the moon, standing of the top of a mountain, dancing around your apartment, laughing till your belly hurts, sun on your face, twirling and jumping, freedom on the open road. oh how i long for that wild right now.

today, though, when i listened to the song again, i felt it. there was a twinge of wildness within me. it’s there. it always has been. and always will be. and i felt a sense of wild peace.

so, for now, as i head down the stairs and outside to the basement to gather my laundry, which is finally done, i’ll stop for a moment in the backyard and sit in a chair in the sun. i’ll tilt my head back, close my eyes, plug in my headphones, and let the music sweep me away while the sun warms my face and my bare arms. i’ll let my soul open up; and in an instant, i’ll feel the wild, carefree nature that is my soul. i’ll remember that the gate is wide open… and anything is possible.

come on, join me and listen to lp belt out her lyrics about living life. and let’s leave that gate behind.

(click here if you don’t have spotify and/or want to watch the video).

Are we on the lonely side
Say oh now the past long away
Are we so lost in the dark of our hearts
That oh-oh-oh-oh there’s no light of day, no-oh-oh
No-oh-oh-oh

One, two, three, four

Somebody left the gate open
You know we got lost on the way
Come save us, a runaway train, gone insane
How do we, how do we not fade?
How do we, how do we, how do we not fade away?
How do we, how do we all fall
Into the wild
How are we livin’, livin’, livin’
Into the wild
How are we livin’, livin’, livin’
Whoa-oh-oh, whoa-oh-oh-oh, hey-hey-hey, hey-hey-hey-hey

Oh please believe me I’m more scared than not
That oh-oh-oh-oh this isn’t the way
And please be there, I can barely hang on
But whoa-oh-oh I’ll wait ‘til I break, yeah-hey-hey-hey
Yeah-hey-hey-hey

Somebody left the gate open
You know we got lost on the way
Come save us, a runaway train, gone insane
How do we, how do we not fade?
How do we, how do we, how do we not fade away?
How do we, how do we all fall
Into the wild
How are we livin’, livin’, livin’
Into the wild
How are we livin’, livin’, livin’
Whoa-oh-oh, whoa-oh-oh-oh, hey-hey-hey, hey-hey-hey-hey

it’s wide open, the world and all her possibilities.

where do you wanna go?

peace & dreams, my loves.