exploring maybeland is a blog about dreams. again,i have no idea when or how our blogs crossed, but following dreams is one of the things that nic and i have in common. i believe that we kindred spirits that are chasing our dreams need each other, so that’s why i am thankful for nic. she has a vision for her life, and she is going after it… full-speed ahead going after it. and that’s inspiring. to me and to others that read her blog. so, go and do it, after you read what she has to share with us here.
when i asked nic if she would do a guest post, she replied with an excited yes and then asked me if i’d do a guest post for her blog. sooo cool. love this collaborative give & take relationship! so, i’m looking forward to writing about exploring the maybes in my life. and i’ll be sure to let y’all know when my post is on her blog.
but for now, without any further ado, i present to you the inspiring and beautiful words of my blogging buddy from germany, as she shares a bit of exploring maybeland with us right here on belovelive.
Are you sometimes unsure if you’re life is going into the right direction? Do you sometimes feel the urge to leave the beaten path and just carve your own way through the wilderness that lies beyond paved roads? Is the only thing holding you back your fear of what others might say or think if you really did? Here’s my advice for you: Just do it! Take that step into the unknown. Be brave. Ignore your fear. Just take that one step. And then another one. And another one. Because that urge you’re feeling right there, it’s there for a reason. It’s your true self calling to take you on the right path. Even if you don’t know where it might lead you to. It doesn’t matter. The goal will become visible sooner or later. You just have to start searching.
I started my own search more than one year ago. At first I didn’t know what to do with this strange longing that grew stronger and stronger everyday. It wasn’t unfamiliar, that feeling. I’d tried to ignore it by pursuing a career in PR. By running away to Japan for a year to escape from it all. But it always came back, stronger it seemed. So I started to accept it. As a reason to start searching for a new direction for my life. Something I wanted to spend the rest of my life doing. A purpose. Let me tell you, it’s easier said than done, but it does get better. At first I felt lost. So many possibilities. So many doubts. Where should I start? But then, one day, it was just there. It came out of nowhere, from the bottom of my mind. I literally found a song in my head. Well, rather a piece of a song, but after some hours of working on it, I had written my first proper song. And from that moment on, I knew what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. What I had been looking for all this time. A way to express myself, to send my message out into this world, to connect with like-minded people. I discovered music.
But how do you start when you suddenly find your love for making music aged 29? Your only experience with singing being long karaoke nights in Tokyo and the occasional hummed tune while taking a shower? Well, by taking one step after the other. I started to sing as much as I could. I bought a book on singing. I wrote more songs. And after a while I started looking for people to work with me on my dream. On making real music, together, as a band. It was a rocky road. Full of disappointment when nothing seemed to happen for ages. Full of desperation when I auditioned for a band and failed horribly. And full of joy when I finally found someone who believed in the potential of my work and my talent. Probably even more than I did. Suddenly, it wasn’t just me by myself anymore. I found a companion. Not only for making music, but also for life. I had never expected for this to happen, not in my wildest dreams. But after making music together for several months, we fell in love. After years and years of being single I found that one person I can’t imagine my life without anymore. My soulmate who shares the same beliefs and dreams with me. All because I took that one step into the unknown.
We’re still travelling on a rocky road. But we’ve learned how to deal with obstacles in our way and the moments of joy are slowly starting to dominate. After many months of searching for people to make our band complete, of being rejected and let down, it finally looks like we got lucky. We’ve been rehearsing as a full band for a couple of weeks now and it’s just amazing to see the songs I created in my mind come to life. It’s mind-blowing what a group of dedicated people is capable of creating. And I can’t wait to share our work with the world one day. I’m dying to go out on a stage soon. And when we do, I’m sure it’s gonna be beyond amazing. This is the adventure of my lifetime and I couldn’t be happier that I took that one initial step and didn’t just wipe the idea away like I had done with others so many times before. Because this is who I really am. This is who I want to be. And that’s all that matters.