one of the hardest things for me to do is to live in the present moment. i’m forever looking back, remembering & re-living events. many times wishing it was still like it was “back then”, whether it’s something from yesterday or from a year ago, or from 10 years ago. there are so many good memories… and when, i’m not looking backwards, i’m looking forwards. dreaming, wondering, trying to figure out my future; asking what comes next? what’s gonna happen next? or i’m looking forward to something that is planned, whether it’s after work tonight, or next week, or next Christmas.
it seems that many times i am so focused on what has been or what will be, more than what is.
but, then, there are moments when i just let it all be. like yesterday. my love & i finished up at work/internship at 4:30. YES! we usually work so many nights, so this was a true luxury. and since the sun sets late here, we had about 5 hours of sunlight left. it had been a warm, sunny, beautiful sunny day, so we headed downtown to take care of some errands and grab some take-out food. then, we settled down on our blanket at a nearby park. i don’t know how long we were there. we had our cozy little picnic, lay down & soaked in the sun, smelled the food of others who were grilling (we’ve GOT to buy a little grill too!), and just took in everything that was happening in those moments.
it’s good to live in the present moment. to be aware. now, if only i can find a way to appreciate/live in the present moment when i’m doing something that i don’t enjoy as much as having a picnic with my love… perhaps, all i have to do is to be aware that in every moment, every single one, there is something sacred and meaningful.
wishing you moments of peace.