tonight i’m feeling restless. bored. like i don’t know what to do, but don’t really want to do anything either.
i think it’s the darkness. as i mentioned yesterday, daylight savings time ended last night. so, winter time is upon us. today, when i walked home after work at 2:45, i knew the sun was beginning its descent. it had already fallen below all of the buildings. by the time 4 came, all the lights needed to be turned on. by 7, I felt as if it was 10 since it had been dark for so many hours already.
usually i feel really cozy in the middle go the swedish autumn’s darkness; but tonight I was pacing the floors. nor even a few candles lit could soothe me. i gave up about 8:30, and my love (who felt just like me) and i crawled into bed. we lit a candle, i downed a glass of wine, and we talked about our dreams, about the future. we talked ourselves down from our restless evening. it’s now almost 10, and a respectable time to go to bed without feeling like a little old lady. the cat has made herself a little nest between us now, the final sign that its time to bring this day to a close & rest before tomorrow.
so, goodnight world. snuggle down and let the darkness envelop you. feel calmness & silence all around you.
peace, I wish for you.