finally. october is almost over. i’ve never had anything against october, friends. in fact, i’ve often loved this month because of the beauty of the turning of the seasons. but, this year… it has been very gloomy.
and this week… well, it has been the epitome of tough.
if you listened to our podcast this week, then you know that a friend of ours died.
in addition to that, lina and i both found out some very tough news surrounding our families. that means that lina is on call and may be headed to her hometown at any minute. and i am headed to north carolina today, as you read this.
you guys, it really has been crappy and tough. but, we are holding on. shifting from crying to feeling strong. emotions swinging every which way back and forth.
as usual, i am observing the changes in nature, and it seems that this week, suddenly almost all of the leaves fell from the trees, reminding me very concretely of how life changes. and yet, somehow, there is still something beautiful to be seen + found. even now.
and, for me, nature just seems to be one of the things that keeps me sane. that reminds me to be slow. to look around and to trust…
that’s really all that i have this week, you guys. the one thing i know, though, is that it is important to feel it all. to sit with it all. and to keep living through it all. because this is still my life to live. my life to choose how i want to live. and it is up to me to choose to trust the unfolding of life, or not. of course, i choose to trust.
and, in the meantime, i am sending light + love out there to the world… and to each one of you. blessings for this week.
i’ll keep in touch from the states.