Happy weekend, y’all. Its Friday and I am home. All. Day. Long. I’m gonna be home every Friday from now on. And that means that now my Fridays are the shit.

Here’s why.

This past autumn I worked full time because my colleague was on parental leave, so I took on some of her responsibilities. Originally, my contract is actually written for me to work 80% (4 days a week), and that’s what I did last spring. But, with my colleague having a baby during the summer, we needed a substitute for her for the fall semester. So, the school decided to give me a 20% contract in addition to my 80% contract… and that obviously meant that I’d be working 100%. Full time. 5 days a week.

It was really good. And it was really tough.

You see, I am responsible for 3 classes (~ 90 students) with my 80%, and my colleague is also. I took on one of her classes (30 students) for my extra 20%, while a substitute came in for the semester for the other 60. While it doesn’t sound that bad to add in 30 more students to 90… it totally was.

The 30 girls in the class were (and are) amazing. So sweet and adorable and fabulous. Though, there was a lot of work due to quite a few of them having some pretty intense health issues of all different kinds. So, 120 students left me feeling like I could never accomplish anything completely or correctly. I felt as if I was drowning at work and I tried to give some responsibilities away, but my position isn’t really set to be one that can delegate so much. It’s so specific, what I do as a mentor. And it’s all connected to everything else.

my desk at the school

Add in the stuff happening in my own life (parents sick + having surgeries, a 3-day trip to the US to be with them, my wife hitting rock bottom with her eating disorder, being on edge and feeling unsuccessful at work, 2 very close deaths in the family, and so much more)… it all made this autumn one of the hardest I have faced.

I had also completed my life coach training + was officially internationally certified! But, I literally had no time and definitely no energy to work with that… even though my inspiration was out the roof. And that depressed me. Left me feeling suffocated – because there was so much I wanted to do, yet had no capacity to do it at all.

All of this meant that I was forced (by myself + my body) to take some mental health days toward the end of autumn. To back off. Slow down. Try to rebalance. And I seriously began looking forward to the holidays, a two week break from work, and a trip with Lina to the States to be with my brother + my parents. A reset button.

Before the holidays, though, I tried really hard to get my work to hire me permanently with that extra 20%. I mean, even if my colleague would be back to work in January + take back her students, there was so much more that I could do to fill up that 5th day of work. Sooooo much to do. So, I feverishly tried to sell myself in. But, in the end, even though I sold myself in, there was no money. No possibility to add the extra time to my contract.

For about 30 minutes I was disappointed.

But, my soul was celebrating. I knew that I needed my extra day back. I knew all along that I should not ask and try to make my 5th day at the school a permanent thing. But, the money… the stability… it was so tempting.

Fortunately, I have an amazing wife who supports me like crazy. She wants me to be happy, wants me to grow my Life Coaching business, and celebrated with me the fact that now, after an autumn of hell, I had my 5th day back. My day to dedicate to my own work.

So, today is the first day of having my 5th day back. 

And I’ve been working like a crazy person at home. Updating mailing lists. Planning newsletters. Making a few business dates. And gearing up to bombard y’all with Life Coaching offers + inspiration. Gaaaaaah. It feels sooooo good.

Oh, and I’ve been drinking coffee for about 5 hours now too, of course, and listening to my favorite playlists on Spotify. As soon as I complete this post, I’ll make some lunch and take a break. Because… self care.

Then, there’s more to do. Meditate (that is part of how I structure all of my days). Find inspiration. Write some more. Envision a lot. Take + edit some photos. Drink a little beer while working. (Because… weekend + I’m responsible + home). All the stuff that I loooove to do.

And that, my friends, is why my Fridays are the shit. 

I have been given the gift of a full day, which I now call my 5th day, to work on my visions and dreams and plans. It may not be the safest, most stable thing some of you might think. It may be risky to not seek to find full-time work. But, I live in Sweden. A place where jobs are not always 100%. And that’s ok. A) Our salaries are pretty good here. B) Health insurance. We don’t need it. Our taxes pay for health care. C) It is not frowned upon to have a <100% job. It’s normal. And, most importantly, D) Work/Life balance. We only have one life. So, why not take all of the risks we can to live out our dreams + visions?!

It is all about balance + priorities. And, if I need to not buy something this month so I can work from home on Fridays, then so be it. My dreams are worth way more than a new anything.

So, here’s to all of us taking whatever (scary or silly or socially different) steps it takes to live the life that we dream of living! And… here’s to rising up from the tough, dark times + discovering how the tough, dark times are most often the best blessings in disguise in the end.

xoxo. liz.