fact: it snows in may in sweden. yes. you see it. it’s true. it has snowed 2 mornings this week so far. and it’s been cold. and windy. and… well, it’s amazing what the weather will do to your attitude. i must admit that this week, when i’ve woken up, i have not really wanted to get out of bed. i’ve had no motivation. and i’ve been dreading the activities of the days and the weather. where’s the sunshine? where’s the warmth? where’s that feeling that everything’s full of color and life? not with me so far this week.
and then, on top of that, there’s the news coming from the states that so many are celebrating over the death of another. i’m talking osama bin ladin here. ugh. i know that writing helps me process this, but i have so many thoughts and feelings that it’s just too much to try to put into words. maybe it’s just not time yet. i’m not forcing it. it will come, when and if, it will come. but, let me just say that i feel a profound sense of darkness (and not joy) about this whole situation.
it’s not all gloomy in my life this week. i have officially gotten an internship where lina’s working!!! and i start on monday! it will be so so so great to work with young people and learn more swedish at the same time. this is actually a place that fits my education and work experiences as well! WOO HOO! hopefully this will lead to a job eventually…. and, i have been told that i am going to take the test for the last level of my swedish class in 3 weeks! if i pass, then i will be done with swedish for immigrants – which in no way means that i am fluent, but that i have a foundational knowledge of swedish. but, we’ll see what happens, i’ve only been in this class since the end of march. so, i’m a little nervous. still, i’m flattered and excited!
and, today, the sun is shining! it’s still a bit chilly, but not cold. the birds are singing and it sounds like spring again outside my open window. things feel brighter. spring is coming back. warm weather is returning just in time for the weekend. yessss. so, this morning, i’ve had my coffee (well, it’s time for a second cup) and i’ve checked on the news while my cutie cat has been curled up under the covers beside me. now i’m ready to face this day with all it’s business and things to do!
but, the bottom line is: i have spring fever which is turning into summer fever. no matter what i’m doing these days, all i’m thinking about is going to the beach & the mountains in NC in SEVEN WEEKS!!!!
happy cinco de mayo, mis amigos!!! peace.