oh, to be like the cat.

we have this routine in the mornings in our little home. not one that we decided on, but that has just happened over time. the cat loves to play early in the mornings… which we don’t really like, since she wants us to play with her and we’re still trying to squeeze in a little more bit sleep. so, we ignore (as best we can) her cries and her little paw pokes to our faces. we try to forget the fact that she’s running like a wild animal from room to room, just dying for someone to get up and play with her. but we don’t budge. we pull the covers up tighter & pretend to be asleep – hopefully actually falling back asleep.

fast forward about an hour, and our alarms go off. we usually give ourselves a little time to drink some coffee & read the newspaper/blogs in bed. but, still, the cat is unsatisfied. she keeps jumping up and talking to us, moving from room to room, not sure what she wants to do. and then, we get up and the cat is satisfied to follow us around a little bit as we get ourselves ready for the day. but, soon, in the midst of our morning preparations, we realize that the cat is no longer with us, no longer following us. where is she? yep. she’s now in bed. ready to take a long, cozy nap. usually crying for someone to lift the covers so she can snuggle under and have a relaxing morning.

i wanna be like the cat. after i’ve had my coffee and caught up on some news, i wanna snuggle back down under the covers, perhaps not to sleep, but to enjoy a lazy, relaxing morning. writing, reading, creating, even working some (maybe).

today i most definitely don’t want to get out of bed. it’s raining & snowing (april weather in sweden still remains to be optimal). it’s gray. my coffee is yummy. the cat has now made herself a little cozy spot beside me. everything feels good right here. i wanna stay. i don’t wanna face the weekend. well, part of me does, but the other part of me doesn’t. i’ve got a lot to do tonight, tomorrow, and sunday – job related. i am preaching for the first time in 4 years on sunday, and organizing a bunch of youth to help lead the service at church. i feel ok & excited about getting to preach, and yet overwhelmed at the same time… wanting the next 48 hours to just disappear and for everything to be over so i can breathe. not a good attitude, i know. but, even though i know that everything will be fine, i still am filled with anxiety and fear of the unknown. it’s always easier to breathe in the middle of doing something difficult & of course, after it is finished. but, before… that’s the time that will drive you crazy.

and on top of that, lina is gone this weekend for her work. she’s leaving in about an hour and will meet me at church sunday morning. thank goodness i have the cat (crazy as she is) to keep me company, calm me down, and make me laugh.

so, yes. in my dreams i could climb back into bed and stay there. with my little family. just us. here. all day.

whatever you face today, i wish you energy in the midst of it. and some rest for your soul later on. remember to take care of yourself, to make some time for just you.

peace and love, dear readers.