week forty nine // the week that i trusted the process

oh, and it was so intense. and pretty much in amazing + wonderful ways. so, stay with me and i’ll share all of the details with you right now!

i starts off my week with this quote. i just ran across it and it felt so right. i had no idea how perfect it would end up being for me…

i also started off the week with a little snow. not much and it didn’t stay around long, but enough to make me really long for the snow that stays on the ground all winter. come on, snow!

i also worked at the photo boutique monday and tuesday. it felt soooooo great to be back there. i just love it so much. i’ll be there quite a bit between now and christmas, with lots to do! while i was there, i snapped a photo during my lunch time at 2:15 of the sun setting. folks, it is super dark here now. like crazy dark. but, it’s still gorgeous. and i’m still not tired of it. so, that’s good.

wednesday i was home. taking care of home stuff. and doing a little erred running of the christmas/holiday sort. so much fun. my love and i even got big into decorating, though i believe that we are doing it a little bit at the time, as we still have things in the basement to bring up. i should totally do that when i finish this. we are embracing our minimalist theme fully, and realizing that it feels simple and just right. more decoration photos to come in a whole post dedicated to that soon!

on thursday i was stressed. and i’ve got a long story to tell you about why i was stressed and anxious.

last spring, i apple for a job as a mentor at a high school. the job felt right and i was very excited about the possibility to work in a school as a coach/counselor type. t’s exactly what i have been wanting to do for as long as i have worked in schools actually. well, i knew that my interview went well, but in the end, it was between me and another person, and they chose the other person.

and i was ok with that. it was meant to be i knew. so, i just moved on. and life kept on moving on, as it does. with my job at the photo boutique and my life coaching stuff, i had stopped looking for jobs for right now.

two weeks ago, out of the blue, as i sat and worked on my book in the library, i got an email from the principal at the school where i had interviewed last spring. they were looking to hire another mentor and remember me and wondered if i would be interested in coming in for an interview for this position.

hell yeah!

i instantly knew that the timing of this was even more amazing than i could wrap my mind around. i mean… there were no words.so, i responded with an excited yes, and set my interview for the following wenesday.

the interview went well, and i felt even better than i had before. last spring. then, i twas the waiting game. i sent a thank you email a few days later, and was then asked to send in some references. a good sign! a few days after that i received another email saying that they wanted me to come for a second interview to meet the teaching team that i might possibly work with, should i be offered the job.

last thursday, i had that interview. i was excited because they still were interested in me. but, twas so nervous. and i’m usually not that nervous. of course, as soon as i got there, my nerves totally went away and i settled right into chatting with the four other teachers. and it was fun. is it cool to say that an interview is fun?! well, it was. hehe.

then, the waiting game again. gaaaaah. but, they told me that i would know either on friday or on monday (today).

the evening i had my work (photo boutique) christmas party, which was a great distraction for me. so, dinner out with fun people and good food and drink… the perfect way to stay focused on the present moment and let all of my wondering and what ifs go.

friday, my love and i were going our separate ways. she, headed down south to visit her parents and friends for the weekend. and me, to my 3rd weekend of life coach training. i was leaving just before lunch time, and about 30 minutes before i was to lock up + leave, my phone rang.

i totally assumed it was lina. but, it was a number i didn’t recognize. so, i knew. my heart fluttered. my hands began sweating. and i could hardly catch my breath.

on the other end of the phone, i could hardly believe that i was hearing the words i was hearing. “we would like to offer you the position as mentor, if you are still interested.” oh. my. god. it was too good to be true. we decided i’d stop by on monday (today) to discuss my salary (a whole different approach to this than in the states, my friends) and other practical things.

so, i got a job! a real, permanent job. and i’ll work 80%, so i will have a bit of time to focus on building my life coaching business too.

i believe i must have floated to the bus on friday. plugged in my headphones, listened to christmas music during my ride out to the country, and just let the feeling sink in. and the feeling was so very right. even though i could hardly believe it. in fact, i think i still don’t completely believe it.

the life coach training weekend was amazing. inspiring. affirming. powerful. and exhausting. i wa completely drained in every single way. but, it felt really really good.

sunday afternoon came, and i climbed back on the bus to uppsala. satisfied. inspired. and overwhelmed. i will admit that tears fell from my eyes over and over again throughout the weekend from feeling so very grateful and amazed.  but, soon i was home again and in the arms of my love. everything feeling exactly as it should. i blogged late into the night. and then slept soundly + restfully in my own bed. giving thanks over and over again.

so basically, i didn’t learn anything new this week. but, i deepened my faith in myself. i became even more comfortable with trusting the process. and perhaps that is even more important right now. to allow myself to begin to a whole new level/way of living.

i was given the gift of seeing, once again, that seeking to live from from our souls, trying to always be true to who we are, and working to live in the present moment always leads us down the right path. always.

where is your soul leading you this week?!

onwards + upwards! xoxo